...I DO take it personally

I have always been inferior... because of the way I look (my physique, my skin imperfections, etc.), because of the countless failures I have experienced, because of the general rejections that I have faced... and while some people say that this is just me being negative or pessimistic, I reply with no, this is me trying to look at things at a practical way to get myself going and further challenge myself.


I don't mope. Yes, I cry. But, I don't mope. I let it get to me, let it affect me... Yes. I let it affect my future decisions... Yes. But, not permanently.

"Why?" People might ask.

Because this is what keeps my feet on the ground.

This is some sort of way for me to tether myself into something I won't take for granted... into something I won't feed too much into my head making me arrogant or presumptuous, or sometimes, the opposite - mopey or dejected.

Yes, it obviously is a negative approach, but I tend to think of it as something as how ugly the outside world actually works.

Society tends to be really judgmental. We are judged by social status, religion, gender, sexuality, preference, etc. It's like an endless turf war, I tell you.

How do you expect every single person in the planet to agree on equality and peace, when they can't even mind their own businesses if a person decides to get an iPhone 5 over the Galaxy S3? A small issue like this leads to the hopelessness of the bigger issues. And this is something that one Karissa Yu has no power over against it.

So when people don't like me... or prefer someone else over me... or choose something that is not to my liking, I DO take it personally. It means that there is something I am... I did... I am doing... or I prefer... that is not reciprocated the same way as how others want.

And that is exactly okay!

Because you are never, EVER, going to please everybody! And you were not born into this world for the sole purpose of pleasing every single person! (1) You may be helping one person out and that's a good thing, but someone else doesn't approve of it and it's a bad thing for him. (2) You may be protecting someone's name to spare him of shame and that's a good thing, but someone else feels like you are spoiling that person too much and that's a bad thing for him.

It's a whole never-ending cycle of how people look at you, how they look at a situation, and how all of us perceive and react to it.

God, it's frustrating, really.

But the end point of it all... is to not let it get to you permanently and destroy your principles. It may get to you for a while and, then, that's when you plan out what to do next. Don't let it make you lose sight of who you really are...

So, the next time I encounter the same scenario, Oh, I take it personally. ...and then I throw it back in their faces! (not literally, of course, wahahahaha~)

On a side note: Wow, this blog post is empowerment of all kinds of crazy! XD hahahaha~

Welcome to my brain, dear reader!

'Til the next post.