All the Negative Chi

Do you know how they say that when you spend too much time in a gloomy environment that it tends to mold you into that type of personality?

Well, sad to say, WELCOME, NEGATIVE CHI!! O_O (gulp)


My work environment tends to get heated and troublesome. In times when customers come pouring in and when it's sooooo busy, the staff tends to scream at each other to get things done. This does NOT bode well when you are working with your Mother and Grandmother.

I knew, from the start, that mixing work life and personal life is not a good idea. And up to this day, I still do not like it. But, alas, as far as Chinese tradition and culture goes, I must do what I must to help the family. And I have been working for the past 2 years in our family business, trying to work out and making sure that family relationships won't get affected.

Try as I might, I noticed changes.

For one, I am not a better person. I constantly bark and get irritated easily. My patience is wearing thin and I am on my guard most of the times. Comments are passed but I sometimes take it as criticisms. And vice versa.

Despite laughing and teasing and joking with them everyday, relationships aren't the way they were used to before.

It's like there is negative cloud that is released on top of everyone's head everyday and I find myself wanting to stand clear and get out of their ways.

Maybe there's something wrong with our Feng Shui here or something... O.o