.After a very shocking and life-turning talk with my mom and sister today... I got scared with facing the future. Things are happening too fast (that shocked me too much) that I just couldn't hold back the tears. My chest felt soooooo heavy that it stopped me from what I was doing. (Sorry, I can't post what we talked about since it's very delicate, but I just had to post what I'm feeling right now)
.Life just took another step without me realizing it... and that step made me trip. Once again, I'm struggling with myself if how I can handle it. In the world where so many rules must be followed, I got really scared. I didn't want things to happen so fast. It made me think on what's going to happen to me in the future? Where will I end up? What job am I going to end up at? What country will I live in na? Will I marry? Which family am I going to be part of next? Where are we gonna live? Am I going to have kids? Am I gonna be successful in my job? Which school will my kids go to?
.There will come a time I guess when we would have to ask these questions to ourselves. No doubt about it, they will come along.
.After the very serious conversation we had just now, my confidence in life drifted away as if it was smoke. I feel like crumbling and it hurts T_T
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