Seeking...

 ... a friend to hang out who is available whenever I'm available, and who likes the same things I like. I have long since skipped some movies that I wanted to watch because, either I have not found someone who is free the same time I am to watch it with me or I have not found someone who actually wants to watch the same things I do. Also, I have always wanted to go to places or just have a quick lunch and again, time is not of factor. (le sigh)

... something that can fill the redundancy that is my life. Gym. Work. Sleep. Wake up. Gym. Work. Sleep. Wake up. Isn't there something else that can make you forget about the redundancy of every day things?? >.<

... a special someone? Lonely, incapable, inferior, sad, undesirable... These are just a few things that I feel right now because all my life, I have never experienced being truly and romantically loved by that someone. And I feel that it has wrongly something to do with the way I am whenever I see my brothers and sister go out to dates or sharing love stories of their significant others. It feels sad that all I ever tell them is, "Sorry. Cannot relate." T_T

... a certainty to the future. That somehow, I'd be able to live a life that I've always wanted. That I won't die alone and bitter. (Oh God, that's so scary! T_T)