.Onee-sama

.It has been a week since Onee-sama got married and it's a little lonely here at home. The nights at the living room are silent na since we don't hear her playing the piano anymore, things sometimes get a little too unorganized and messy since she's not there to fix it up anymore and the usual cooking/surprise parties/fun activities aren't there anymore too since she's usually doing all those. Haaay~ =(

.It has only a been a little over 5 months since we last renovated our bedroom and yet we were rearranging things again tonight (alas, spilled my coffee on my things, good thing I got the laptop away fast) my stuff got transferred to my sister's desk and as well as my bed stuff, I'm sleeping in her bed now. It shocked my sister at first when she got back home tonight to get her stuff, I knew she was sentimental about not being in the house anymore :( well, we all were, but I know we'll get over it... eventually.

.So I'm using her side of the room now and Katrina's using my side of the room... it's a change that was a little uneasy at first but we got used to it pretty fast. Siobe's ecstatic about her desk (which was mine before) and her cabinet (which was Onee-sama's before) now but we would stop and suddenly think of Onee-sama. We still have her pillow in between Siobe and I, and would greet the pillow "Good night" every night and "Good morning" the moment we wake up =(

.Taking up her side of the room turned out to be a good thing for me... it keeps me from thinking about the empty space that was once hers. It keeps me from thinking that the bed she was on was empty now. I guess I'm filling up the space... her space. I found myself shopping for supplies needed around my room yesterday since she took all her supplies with her.

.I think this is somewhat a double-meaning type of thing for me... maybe God is trying to tell me that it's tad time that I do the same things that she's been doing. That it's my turn to do the things that she's capable of doing. No, not a "replacement", but "my turn".

.God, I miss her.