.I have been human

.I have fell a lot of times (not literally, of course)... have made mistakes, have made wrong decisions, have had regrets, have had self-pity, have blamed, have accepted, have taken all blame and kept silent, have screamed, have lashed out... I have been human.

.I am never a person to preach... preach others to be good, do good, etc. But that doesn't mean I do evil. Don't be confused. What can I say, I have a different way of thinking. I don't like preaching others to do what's right since I, myself, do not understand what is right for others and what is not. Being "right" is relative... may be right for you, but not for them... who cares.

.I am not perfect nor will I ever be. I don't think anybody can. Well, "perfection" can also be relative in a way... so cheers to you!

.I have failed... countless times. Failed a friend, failed a subject, failed a loved one... but I grew stronger after failing. Trying my hardest to avoid failing again... and if ever I do, well, I'll just have to try even harder.

.Personally, I have regretted a lot of things I did not do after failing IT26. I have cried, have blamed, have had self-pity... but then, I have learned, have accepted, have become stronger... and then, what was once "regret" became a source of "experience" for me. Yes, people might think this is actually full of bull and just all talk, but whatever... I now learned that taking the subject again prepared me, enhanced me, brought me back my confidence again. I feel that if ever I was able to go on during that time, I may not make much of what I have achieved today.

.God did have a reason for me. I have seen the things of what was me before and what I am today. I have realized the things that I have right now and results of the hard work I did after standing up from that fall. And right now, I did not regret failing IT26 at all. Yes, I was at fault. Yes, I made a mistake. Yes, I did not do my best. Which brings me to the question, "Why was I so afraid before of admitting my mistake? Why did I not accept fault at first?" Humans have fear... they hurt, they fall, but they stand up.

.I have fell a lot of times, have made mistakes, have made wrong decisions, have had regrets, have had self-pity, have blamed, have accepted, have taken all blame and kept silent, have screamed, have lashed out...

.I have been human, I stood up.